Life is not a montage

I feel like I’m waiting for the musical interlude and for my life to magically change before my eyes.  That’s the way movies tell me that change happens.  But, of course, in my mind I know that is not true.  Wha?!?!?!

In face, change is PAINFULLY slow sometimes.  Other times, I mull over something for a long time and then change feels really fast but, in fact, I have to account for the mulling time.  I actually love it when this happens, though, because it usually feels really right.

I have to make my own montage.  It’s not going to be nearly as sexy or quick as what I’d see in a movie but I will know the change is happening.  That is what creates the calm inside of me.

My first big goal is to become a minimalist.  I have been reading this and this and I have been observing my life and realizing that I am never going to feel like I have space in my life for the truly important things until I clear out the extra clutter in my house.

I have two kids, I work full time, my husband works full time, and we spend our entire weekend cleaning and purchasing stuff for the next week.  At night we cook and clean and sleep.  We might even squeeze in something extra if all goes well with bedtime.

I don’t want to end up watching my kids move out of the house and realize I wasted all that time with them trying to simply keep up with everyday life.  I’d love a part-time job and I will be working toward that.  In the meantime, I will be clearing out the clutter.  I’m hopeful that some of the things I learn in these books and from observing my kids and my life will click for me.  My hope is that it begins to affect other areas of my life and help me feel more calm.

We shall see…

Robin Williams & Bobcat Goldthwait

12_wildcat_williams-pg-horizontalIf you are like me you may still be thinking about Robin Williams, especially on the anniversary of his death.

Well if you want to indulge that a bit and get a deeper glimpse into him as a person, listen to this touching Comedy Bang Bang podcast with Bobcat Goldthwait, (did you know they were great friends?).  He shares some sweet stories and I actually felt a little better after listening.  It seems as though Robin was going one way or another, he just chose his exit before it was too late.  He is still missed immensely.

Also, here are some comments made by his friends on Twitter and a sweet tribute video.  And here is my post from last year.

We miss you Robin…

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Foggy weekend

IMG_6848A late night on Friday meant a screwed up schedule and grumpy cranky kids.  They would go from happy as a clam to screaming for nothing in 2.2 flat.  We did our best to keep it together and I even got some pretty cute pictures (we spent a lot of time in the nude as you can tell).

On Friday I read this amazing last article from a reporter who was dying of cancer and wrote a good-bye post.  It was so eloquent and touching I haven’t stopped thinking about it.  I am so sad I can’t find it right now but I will and I will post a link.

No matter how tough things got over the weekend I remembered her and changed my mindset to be thankful that I get to be alive through all the craziness.  Every moment is a gift and I will make a point to appreciate every single one.

Just a couple of pictures

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I’ve been thinking about my littles all day long so this is a just a post of two adorable pics of them.  They make my heart swoon every day.

Isla’s been blowing kisses and saying “Bye”, “Mine” and “Mommy” and waving and clapping and shouting “Hurray!” when we sing Happy and You Know It.

Charlie’s turning into a very big boy.  He’s repeating difficult words and phrases just to see how they feel and sound coming out of his mouth.  He’s battling “mine” syndrome and winning, he’s been super sweet with Isla.  And his feet are ENORMOUS!

Hope you all are having a wonderful day!

Heartbreaking news about Robin Williams

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I was one of many heartbroken after hearing the news about Robin Williams.  I am so sad for the place of despair that he had to get to in order to take his own life.  I feel so bad for his family and everyone who knew and loved him.  He sounds like a wonderful person.

 

I know how much I loved his art.  These pictures are from one of the most pivotal movies in my life.  It seems so silly to feel connected to an actor, someone I only knew through the screen, but I am deeply saddened nonetheless.  The world seemed better with him in it.poet460 deadpoetssociety7986965_f520
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Hope your weekend is filled with love and laughter

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I love this picture of Elaine Stritch.

What are you up to this weekend?  We’re taking the kids to one of their very first baseball games and throwing them a birthday party.  It will be so much fun to share these new experiences with them.  I think that’s one of the best parts of parenthood, you get to experience it all as new again.

 

 

 

Toddler Tantrum: Best Tip Ever

photoWe’ve been dealing with the temper tantrums for a while now.  It’s definitely getting better as time goes on.  I’ve learned that one of the very best tactics to settle them down is  Continue reading