Wednesday Weigh In

12Happy Halloween Wednesday!

My weight loss journey is slow but it’s trending in the right direction!  I have lost 12 pounds since I starting becoming uber concious of my body and my intake.  It’s exciting that it’s working!  I think, like so many people, I don’t really trust those first 10 lbs, maybe it’s just a fluke.  Now that it actually seems real I am feeling really happy and proud of my progress.  This is mostly because I had it in my head that it was never going to happen.

That being said, this is the time when I fall into that nasty trap of overeating again and watching the scale go up again.

I read in this amazing book (I am seriously in love with Brene Brown) that “we cannot selectively numb emotions.  When we numb the painful emotions, we also numb the positive emotions”.

This was profound to me and it made me wonder…when I have positive feelings about losing weight, maybe they trigger the same urge to numb as “bad” feelings.  Therefore I eat to comfort myself and undo all of my hard work and get myself looped back into the diet cycle.  I’m not sure it completely made sense but it’s something to ponder.

Bringing this possibility out will help me recognize it if it happens which is the first step toward change, right?  As Brene says, once you see a pattern, you can’t unsee it.  It’s like when you buy a new car and then you start seeing the same car all over the road 🙂

xoxo

Wednesday Weigh In – How to process emotion?

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One of the biggest hurdles that must be overcome on the way to normal eating is letting myself feel whatever emotion comes up.  It sounds so simple, and it is, but it’s not easy.

What happens is I have the desire to eat when I’m not hungry.  That’s my first clue that some underlying emotion is trying to tell me something.  I try to tune in but either (a) I don’t know what emotion I am feeling or (b) I DO know what emotion I am feeling but I have trouble processing it, letting it flow over me until it diminishes.

SO, what I’ve discovered this week is something called EFT, Emotional Freedom Technique.

What I like about it is that I have a lot of mixed emotions.  For example, I want to exercise more but my actions don’t match my desire, which means I have mixed feelings about it!  This confuses me (to add to the mix).  So I imagine EFT would be really helpful to let both sides of the argument come out and eventually one of them is going to win.

It’s a pretty simple technique although requires some quiet time alone.  I can see how it will safely allow me to explore my emotions.

Many times I feel a lot of fear around expressing and feeling the emotion.  This seems like it will safely help me explore without a lot of risk.  In the meantime, I’ll come to understand my emotions more and release them!  I can see how over time the feelings will diminish, which is the whole point.

I’ve done a lot of therapy which has done amazing things for me, and I will probably do more, but I am intrigued by EFT.  There seems to be a lot of scientific evidence on the success of this technique.  I’m actually kind of excited to give it a try.  Maybe it’s just the thing I’m looking for.

I am not quite ready to share the site I found with the entire blogosphere but if you email me directly I will be happy to share.  Otherwise I think you can google it and find plenty of information.

How’s my week going?

This has been an up and down week for me.  Some wins include:

  • Consciously thinking about how much I am eating, trying to eat to satisfaction
  • Beefing up my exercise and movement, thank you fitbit!  Note on this, I am sad to say that when I don’t wear the fitbit I don’t force myself to move as much…which means it’s working?  Gotta think more on that later.
  • Reading a lot of really helpful material

Some areas to improve:

  • Didn’t make the healthiest choices
  • Still not getting my veggies in at every meal
  • Want to drink more water!
  • That’s all for this week’s Wed Weigh In!

PS I have been working on my bucket list and will post very soon!

Picture from amybscher.com however I am not familiar with the site.  I just liked the cute picture.