Life is not a montage

I feel like I’m waiting for the musical interlude and for my life to magically change before my eyes.  That’s the way movies tell me that change happens.  But, of course, in my mind I know that is not true.  Wha?!?!?!

In face, change is PAINFULLY slow sometimes.  Other times, I mull over something for a long time and then change feels really fast but, in fact, I have to account for the mulling time.  I actually love it when this happens, though, because it usually feels really right.

I have to make my own montage.  It’s not going to be nearly as sexy or quick as what I’d see in a movie but I will know the change is happening.  That is what creates the calm inside of me.

My first big goal is to become a minimalist.  I have been reading this and this and I have been observing my life and realizing that I am never going to feel like I have space in my life for the truly important things until I clear out the extra clutter in my house.

I have two kids, I work full time, my husband works full time, and we spend our entire weekend cleaning and purchasing stuff for the next week.  At night we cook and clean and sleep.  We might even squeeze in something extra if all goes well with bedtime.

I don’t want to end up watching my kids move out of the house and realize I wasted all that time with them trying to simply keep up with everyday life.  I’d love a part-time job and I will be working toward that.  In the meantime, I will be clearing out the clutter.  I’m hopeful that some of the things I learn in these books and from observing my kids and my life will click for me.  My hope is that it begins to affect other areas of my life and help me feel more calm.

We shall see…

Have a lovely weekend…

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Let’s enjoy every single day, every single moment.  If, like me, you are still googling him every day, here are a few links from around the web…

A beautiful post from Girl’s Gone Child which includes Norm Macdonald’s touching tweets.

Hilarious Robin Williams helping Matt Damon with his monologue on Jimmy Kimmel

A short interview with ABC News Australia where Robin comments on comedy and addiction

Sweet pictures of Robin with his wife in February of 2014

A great interview he does on Marc Maron’s podcast, WFT

Great pictures and kind words from people who worked with Robin

This clip and this clip of Dead Poet’s Society just brought tears to my eyes.

Thank you for reading!

xoxo

 

Wednesday Weigh In – Ebb and Flow

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I have noticed that life goes through an ebb and flow.  What matters to me today, won’t necessarily matter as much to me in a year.  What seems desperate today, won’t be a big deal tomorrow.  Sometimes that’s good, my worries lessen with time.  Sometimes not so good because my desire to backpack around Europe, once so exciting, now just seems like work.

The moment must be seized when the desire is there.  Otherwise, the desire fades without the experience to fulfill it.

I have a few big regrets that have now come to this fate. Not applying to be part of Sister Cities, not applying to more colleges farther away, not backpacking around Europe in college, not doing an interesting internship when I was young, not traveling more or going back for a masters before having kids.

There were many reasons I didn’t do the things listed above, there is no denying that.  But now that I know better, I would like to do better.  I’d like to seize my moments.  Carpe Diem, right?

Have you found the same thing in your life?  I’d love to hear.

Needless to say, I have been thinking about this a lot in the last few days since the news about Robin Williams has come out.  I really just can’t stop thinking about him.  I know there is something we are all going to learn from this tragedy.

The good news is that sometimes the desire is just in hibernation and, after a period of years, comes back in full force.  I am starting to see that happen to me.  I can feel the desires to travel and find meaningful, fun, work!  If nothing else then to show my kids that life is fun and worth living and a big adventure!

Anyway, that’s really all.  Just a reminder to myself that we want to strike while the moment is hot, get while the gettin’ is good.  I have my bucket list almost complete and will post on a new page so I can revisit every month and give myself a kick in the behind if I get off track.

FOOD AND STUFF

As far as my weight loss, I have maintained!  I was actually happy and proud when I learned that.  I have been wearing my fitbit and trying to stay active every day.

One big development is that an elliptical machine has been ordered.  I have been anxious to start exercising again and just can’t seem to find the time during the day.  Between sleeping and working and taking care of kids, I haven’t been able to squish it in.  With the elliptical I can make it part of my nighttime routine.

More to follow!

PS I know I am posting my Wednesday Weigh In on Thursday but sometimes that’s how it goes 🙂